I sat in meditation today and I bled you out...

As I inhaled I gathered all of you still inside me
and as I exhaled I bled you out

all my love for you… out…

pouring like blood from my heart… out…

breath after breath

I felt all the love still inside me pouring out of my heart.

My tears were stopped as they arrived

for so much love was still reserved for you

all still inside my sad, sad heart…

Tears kept crushing against the steady shut eyes.

Today there will be no tears.

Today I consciously bled you out.

Breath after breath I pushed you out.

Breath after breath I reclaimed my love,

all the love still inside my sad, sad heart…

One last inhale, I want you out…

I want all of you out so a new love can emerge,

so a new love can find its way into my healed heart,

so a new love can hold me in his arms

and love me like you didn’t…

Aloneness